The Innermost Secrets =)

2010-02-08T14:20:00.002+08:00

sometimes i think facebook is not a good thing
you see things you dont wanna see
you cant see things you wanna see
basically you lose some touch through it

and then there is a blog
what the hell is it here for
sometimes you dont want people to read it
other times you wish someone would
basically humans are weird

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so today is yh's birthday.
happy birthday dude.
i hope you're happy.
sincerely.
seriously.
may all yor wishes come true.

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sometimes i feel you're superficial
sometimes i feel im so fake
sometimes i feel you're so effing suffocating me
sometimes i feel so lonely
sometimes i feel in control
sometimes i feel lost
sometimes i feel life is meaningless
sometimes i feel its dreary
sometimes i feel its a good life
sometimes i feel its otherwise
sometimes i feel its all fake
sometimes i feel its real

just nice it all adds up to twelve lines and they mix and match and make up my one whole year, each taking up to almost a month of that year.

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seriously, those i count as my true friends is really like just a few, not considering those with ulterior motives, those with grudges, those with duties, those with helplessness, seriously, there's less than 5.

i just wish i could get back on good talking terms of those whom i've broken up with, yes including yh and ch. though at times i might feel sad, but the thing is, at that time, i felt closer to you enough to get into a relationship with you and you with me, wouldnt it have meant something? like closer than friends to the point where you're willing to share part of private self with me? and when it doesnt work, how long would you need before we can go back as mere friends? to not stare at each other and avoid direct eye contact. to not simply ignore each others' presence?

oh wells..

maybe i should say i feel quite you noe.. not so good... when i saw that i wasnt included for yh's surprise party... for whatever reasons there is, i hope all of them enjoyed themselves.. and of course that the birthday boy got his surprise and well... may all his wishes come true.. though we ar not meant, i give you my sincerest wishes that you find someone suitable for you when time is right..

"Au revoir amour, je oubliez mon amour pour vous" i will strive to make this true.

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got a huge lot to complain about today's prformance, not my performers of course, but the organisers. but i needto go tuition now, will see how it all goes tomorrow..

2010-02-03T17:31:00.003+08:00

had the mood to blog before i'm off to teach tuition... and the mood seems rght for this entry to be in chinese...

是时候应该放手了。

怎么那么难呢。

再过几天就是你的生日，你生日后的那天就是我们分手的第三个月。奇妙吧。哪有人那么无聊去记伤痛的那天，但我怎么都忘不了。那天不小心看到不该看的东西，但又没勇气上前去问，怕听到不想听到的真相。

怎么像所有的事情都不顺利一样。现在都hibernate了，为什么就不让我好好的休息。有时候真的觉得好累，不知道应该怎么去面对其他人。但以抗下了这个责任，不管有什么阻碍都得要紧牙根努力的撑下去。

我告诉自己，像以前一样，换个发型就代表已放下了一段感情。不知怎么的，这次很像不管用似的。

没勇气去尝试另外一段感情，而看到你都没事的样子，心里不知道该开心或生气。如果能选的话，我会选择开心，因为你已找到你的perception of快乐。

bro,对不起，我骗了你，只是不想让你担心我而已。

有时真的觉得好寂寞，朋友各有各的忙，我也不想去打扰到他们，我知道你们一直都在，我也知道你们有自己的烦恼，所以只好压迫我的感受，而现在也发现笑容来的不易。

怎么都好，新年要到了，让一切成为过去！加油！

made a move towards something, if it's successful, i hope i will be able to bury all the unhappiness and move on.. time heals all wounds, or so they say...

tose who have always been there for me, you know who you are, thanks! Really.

2010-01-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

i saw you today.. pfft.. so determined to let go and there you are standing right in front of my eyes, not even noticing me... sighs...

so anyways... went to sch to tap my card, den met bo and we went ikea to buy stuff to aid the packing of my room... xD so yeah... wasted 60 bucks... and thanks bo for the lunch... though its getting on my nerves tha you always dont wanna take back my share of money... pfft...

2009-12-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

what should i do now?

you know, it still hurts to see you.

it hurts even more to know we are consciously avoiding each oher but acting as if nothing is wrong on the surface.

the way you smile at me now is just another facade that i didnt uncover in time. one word: fake.

but still, there's nothing i can do about it right?

totally stupid coming from me, but...

one piece of advise dear readers, don't be fooled by the quickening if hearbeats, the breathlessness, and the care one seems to have for you. follow your brain before you let your heart take over.

i need to let it go.. since by the looks of it, he already has.

maybe the next time i'll find someone who doesnt give me the aforementioned symptoms but just a nice warmth and one who can make me laugh and will be there for me when i need him. i dont ask for much, really.

i'm a bad liar, so i dont lie.

2009-11-23T19:33:00.002+08:00

totally have no mood to do anything much recently.. no motivation..

raine smsed me last night, waking me up from my sleep... =( LOL... but yeah... HRM is cui... xD and i'll consider wad you told me.. thanks..

i miss FANGLIN!!! havent seen her in quite a while... sadd..

not so well these days... tsk tsk... but oh wells... i'll not let illness hinder me! HAHA...

there are actually many things to look forward to:
1. chee hoe is talking to me again! phew...
2. 3 new tuition students.. =)
3. interview for new exco
4. my study guides are here!! woohoo!! Time to study..
- HRM: untouched
- Stats: done 2 test papers
- Econs: rewrote micro part
- Sociology: GONE CASE
- ESAP: the only module i'm keep up the pace with...

oh wells... better then nothing la huh... xD

spent sat nite at nic's place... haha... playground... played band heroes and raving rabbits... wah i tell u... everytime go his place sure come home with muscled forearms... reallie pain de lo... esp playing with the drums in band heroes... can die... medium already like going mad... but... still... super fun... and supper was super sinful... prata.. nic bought like 12 pieces of prata, one maggie goreng, one indian rojak for 5 of us only leh... omgg...

Xan has gone to buy the boxed sets for WoW... haha... means no reason to not play with him le... hahax... today in game, some random level 60 player gave me 10G.. nice one... and Xan was boasting that he has 3G... oops... xD i think a normal realm is better... won't 无缘无故被杀...

December is almost here... woohoo... my darling jenny will be coming back soon... Bro will ORD soon, but aww Xan will have to go for training le...

tried not to think so much of him le... saw him on skype several times... was so tempted to give him a ring... but i guess... if he's on skype, he most probably is on the line with someone la... so... hmmm... hope he's doing ok...

2009-11-19T02:40:00.002+08:00

hmmm... soon soon...

wasnt feeling very good today... sneezed the whole morning + through ESAP lecture... then met jokko to study and waited for pw to end lesson.. thanks for accompanying me today guys... love y'all...

was supposed to meet Xan for movie today... but... no seats!! HAHA... been meeting Xan alot since last week...

today is not a very happy day i guess... if we were still together, it'd be our 2nd month today... sighs...

anyways... went to Xan's realm to play today... and woohoo... Druidh is fun man... but oh wells... it juz reminds me of the times i played with him... and everytime Xan chat with me.. his face was the image that came to mind...

just saw him on Skype... and well... from how i understand him.. guess he must be on the line now... is he really that unaffected?

bit by bit i am letting go, of the good impression i had of him, of the things i thought he did for me...

learnt something in ESAP today; when one feels that what the other party does is not worth one's effort, she (in this case is me) will come up with self-proclaimed reasons to convince oneself that everything that has been done is worth it... but is it?

it suddenly dawned upon me that, when he jokingly told me the other time that he didnt love me anymore, it was the beginning of the end? some things i really dont wanna brrod over anymore. you are one of them... i dont believe that you are that passive till you wont even approach your friend, much less your 'good friend' as you decided that we are...

oh wells...

enough crap..

oh... thanks FL fo always being there!! and Jenny, though you are not physically here, always listening to my rantings and to Adele, for yeah, giving me your opinions and making me see more clearly for once. your words really opened up some tightly closed storage boxes in my heart. =)

2009-11-16T01:57:00.002+08:00

even if we cant be together. i wish we could just start talking again.

i promise not to bother you with those 无聊 smses that you would feel stressed to reply so it's put to the back of your mind.

seems like there's no one to talk to anymore.

2009-11-16T01:49:00.001+08:00

You'll Have 4 True Loves

You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking.

However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone.

Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next.

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5

You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

2009-11-13T19:23:00.001+08:00

You Fall for the Guy or Girl Next Door Type

You think that people make love too complicated, and what you want in a partner happens to be pretty simple.

You're content with someone who's nice, attractive, honest, and normal. So how come that's so hard to find?

You are fairly traditional, and you value security in relationships more than most people. It's important for you to find someone loyal.

When you find the right person, you don't expect much from him or her. You're just happy to be together.

What Type Do You Fall For?

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

You've Already Found Love!

Whether you know it or not, you've already found love

And this guy could be it, so hold on to him!

And if you're single, start looking more carefully at your guy friends

It could be anyone you already know, so keep an open mind.

Where Will You Find Your Dream Guy?

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

You Are Right Brained in Love

When it comes to love, you go with your gut not with your head.

You have an open heart. You fall in love easily and get hurt just as easily.

You are spontaneous with relationships. You go with the flow and don't worry about the future.

You are romantic, empathetic, and caring. More than most people, you really love being in love.

Are You Right Brained or Left Brained in Love?

Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

2009-11-12T22:32:00.002+08:00

I thought i was strong enough to face you again if i had to. that i wouldnt know cause you didnt come.

what i do know is that i am not even strong enough to face up to hearing your name casually mentioned by others.

i lost it again. im sory for it. but this pain. uncalled for but there nonetheless. it shouldnt hurt this much since its been such a short time. but maybe sister was right. that for once, you mattered. the time doesnt count for nothing.

i felt suffocated in that room. so i left. irresponsible i know. i cant help it.

del told me that if someone loves me, he wouldnt let me go. i choose to think that you loved me, thats why you let me go.

i thought the worst was over when i could speak about it. but i was wrong. time and time again i was wrong. i guess i'm wallowing in self pity, upon sudden realisation that i used innumerable 'I' in this post.

i think ive begun to understand your plight after what my sister told me last night. and not that i agree with your way of handling, but at least we could have tried harder. you just let me go.

no matter what i can say or tell people. i hope you know i'll be waiting for as long as i can. for you. for us. and for that day you'll call me again.

sleepless nights and overdose of caffeine. i can feel my body rejecting me already.

on a brighter note. oh i forgot. there's no brighter note.

i found i didnt feel a thing when i got my assignment back and was graded with an 'A'. instead, i recalled the time i was doing the assignment while you were studying. there in ourspace.

what i can do now is hope. and try to stay home as little as possible. and though i know mum cares and knows. i've never felt this alone.

take care boy. come back soon.

2009-11-11T23:34:00.002+08:00

When people walk away from you, let them walk. Don’t try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring for you, coming to see you, or staying attached to you. When people walk away, let them walk. Your destiny isn’t tied to anybody that left.

i cant do it.

2009-11-10T11:52:00.001+08:00

headache.
swollen eyes.
sleeplessness.

its all part of the package right?

dont have the mood or the will to do anything.

never has it been this bad.

full stop.

2009-11-10T01:41:00.001+08:00

i think you arent affected by it... but i am.

and i cant stop my tears from dropping.

2009-11-09T04:54:00.001+08:00

marlene has come to a decision.. =)

2009-11-08T13:52:00.003+08:00

I was bored... xD so i went to blogthings and did some nonsense quizzes while waiting for my turn to go into battleground... HAHA...

Your Dream Guy is Edward

You are a true romantic, and for you, love is a very emotional and passionate thing.

You want to be wooed, charmed, and even seduced. You have old fashioned ideas about romance.

You don't mind being with a protective guy like Edward, as long as he has your best interests at heart.

You like being taken care of completely, even if things get a little intense at times.

Who's Your Dream Guy: Jacob or Edward?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

He's a Great Boyfriend

You guy definitely loves you and knows how to treat you right.

You have a five star boyfriend - so make sure you treat him right too!

Is He a Good Boyfriend?

Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

You Are Mostly Secure

In general, you feel confident and together.

But the wrong thing can happen, and all of a sudden, you're not feeling so secure.

Luckily, your insecurities don't last long... at least, not usually.

So the next time you're feeling insecure, try to snap out of it - and remember the confident woman you are!

Are You An Insecure Girl?

Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

Your True Blood Guy is Bill

You are an old fashioned romantic, and you're attracted to a true gentleman.

And while you fall for the good guy, you also like it if he's a little bad too!

Your ideal guy is tall, pale, and handsome. His past is a bit of a mystery, but that's totally fine by you.

As long as he's totally devoted to loving you and making your toes curl, that's all you could ask for.

Who's Your True Blood Guy?

The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

omg bill?? he's a liar... even though he survives mostly on 'fake' blood...

2009-11-05T06:09:00.002+08:00

Had a HTHT with Darling just now on issues I am unable to handle, both emotionally and mentally (maybe physically.) and it went on well i guess, at least on my side.

I Love You Darling...

Thanks for always being there when I am down, which is happening quite often recently. Yeah. Am like super carefree now le. Bad timing. But yup i'm kinda glad you forced everything out of me, Really. Have been choking on my emotions for quite a while, with some of my close friends being in pain emotionally, stress from the state my singing is and stuff.

i should learn not to take what others say into consideration, depending on the issue of course.

But guess so far, you're the only one who will break down each issue into pieces and slowly explain it to me and making sure i understand. I really thank you for the patience for retarded me.

When I thought you didn't realise I wasn't feeling good inside, I was proven wrong.

Yup. Serious issues aside, went for dinner with Bon, FL, PW, Wendy, Jokko, Daren and their friends just now at sunset, located at the Singapore Flying Club. Ok food was not bad, but totally filling. I felt my stretchable tee being stretched. Ewww should have looked really gross just now. HAHA.

and then it started to rain. Ewww.

We played some stupid game (stupid cause i keep losing) while waiting for Daren and Jokko. and after they were done, we headed off home. Haha... Quite guai recently, reach home before 12 everyday. However, i sleep like when the sun is about to rise everyday too.

Don't understand how come i spend so much time playing WoW but i still level so slowly. Must be the fact that i'm dead half the time I'm playing and have to run around looking for the repairman another quarter of the time. Thus, only one quarter of the time is spent training. HAHA.

OK damn 'early' now. gotta go off to sleep.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FL'S MUM!!

hehs.

Nites(to most), Morning(for my working friends. HAHA.)

2009-11-03T23:22:00.001+08:00

lol i blogged wrongly again.. retarded...

2009-11-02T22:26:00.002+08:00

went to watch 'Love Happens' with FL, PW and Jokko after studying in school... xD

collected my HRM notes, fell down on the way back to sch from NP, got 'kiap-ed' by the toilet door at the alumni place toilet... omg... todae is such a suay day... HAHAHA

con someone teach me how to control my emotions? i'm afraid its getting a little scary, even to me so i reallie cannot imagine what impression i'm leaving my friends, especially darling and FL... hahas... the weirdest sort of emotions hit me at very funny times... LOL... but after like half hr orso, it juz disappears... hmmm...

guess studying too much makes me a very difficult person... i should stop studying so much... muahaha... if dar reads this, he's gonna say its an excuse... but oh wells...

ok i'm going back to playing my game... xD will be studying in school again tml... tsk tsk...

2009-10-31T16:23:00.002+08:00

hearing the smile in your voice makes it all worthwhile... HAHA

going out.. shall blog when i get back...

i miss you boy...

2009-10-30T19:18:00.002+08:00

Haven't been myself much lately, might be due to mood swings or whatever...

but, out for a day and I feel that I'm myself again... HAHA.. xD
Guess I kinda affected Darling's mood yesterday... Darling, I'm sorry... I know you are like stressed with your IA and stuff and i shouldn't have burdened you with my unnecessary crap..

Was seriously down yesterday after Singing lesson, it was as if nothing was worth it anymore... but thanks to darling, jokko, bonson, FL, adele, PW and Wendy, who kept making me laugh when we were at Macs and darling for entertaining me the rest of the night till i went to bed...

Love you guys loads...

so yup... kinda got back in contact with a 'long-lost' friend... Well, he hasn't changed... HAHA... guess the tension within the secondary school people is takin a toll on me and its good to have someone to talk to again...

Darlings IA paper tomorrow... Hope he does well... I'll secretly lend him all my luck... =) but must return with interest de... hahahahah... =))

sending my cousin off to the airport later... haha... he's going for training!!! aww... i remember the times when we played together... now?! he's like going to army and stuff... faint... we're getting old... I hope i dont turn cranky... LOLX..

Till then....

2009-10-30T04:24:00.003+08:00

am i asking for too much? tell me if i am..

love you boy.

Good luck for your exams darling.. 2 more papers to go.. Woohoo... =)

and i'm not insecure that you are studying with a group of girls. LOL

2009-10-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

Dunno what the fuck is wrong with you...

already said to change the fucking bill to my name, say no, take my fucking student card to upgrade my plan, never tell them its student plan how the fuck they supposed to know when u are one grown adult and then u say its their fault... den call me to scold me coz my fucking bill is over a hundred bucks... so its my fault now?

How the fuck am i supposed to pay the fucking bill...

sorry for all the f words... i cant take it...

and so my whole pay has to go to my bill... and then wad? eat shit? wtf is wrong with you man...

2009-10-28T04:17:00.003+08:00

A little mood swing in the afternoon that I got over in a short time.. =) if you caught my afternoon post, well... its no longer here... Hehs.. xD

Woke up, went to school and studied with Dar and his lecture friends, Cheryl, Shao Min, Rina and han lin... ok i kinda forgot her name... HAHA... Han Lin... hmmm... i have a bad memory when it comes to names... I'm sorry...

They are quite a bunch of fun peeps from the short time i know them... Laugh at anything... faint...

Jenny was like super high the whole afternoon, rambling on about Ayumi... HAHA... ok i know you love her... =) and as usual, i miss you loads... come back soon!! and stop those yoghurts... slapp..

Fanglin is a little down... I worry for you girl... got troubles that you need to talk to someone about, remember that i'm always available k?? 24/7.. You are one of the few in top priority that i promise not to scold if you call at 4am in the morning... yeah... i'll entertain you when u feel a tad lonely k? these few weeks, whenever i'm down, you are there to entertain me, so now, i'll entertain you... hehs...

sidetracking abit...

ok... i finally realised the extent of pain expectations can bring to one... so... i've decided that... it should be minimised! HAHA...

'an apple a day keeps the doctor away.' Do cherry apples count?

2009-10-22T13:27:00.003+08:00

oops... blogged on the wrong blog... nearly fainted... lucky i had this gut feeling to check... if nt 丢脸死... LOL... i actually posted on the Esprimere Blog... OMG... My face can like go sweep floor...

Spent the whole of yesterday in some random Macs in Bedok, near Darling's place... Reached near 1pm, had lunch with Darling as FL has already eaten... It started POURING!!! like cats and dogs seriously...

so yup... studied Statistics and Economics... Sian... Halfway through Adele arrived... and dunno y she so high... laugh and laugh whole day... faint...

Left the place at 10.30pm... Darling seems superbly tired... My poor boy...

Seeing him study so hard, I really hope all his hardwork pays off and get good grades for his modules... =) Even if it means I have to go all the way to Bedok to study with them.. I've no complains man... xD Love ya..

Dar says I pamper him too much... Hmmm... Did I? I seriously don't know... But... No worries la k.. =)

On another note, Fanglin, Take care ya.. recently you like quite down... I'll be here if you need anyone to talk to... =)

OMG its near November!!! Jenny, you're coming back soon!!! HAHAHA... YAY... anyway... Good Luck for your exams k??? 'What is the name of the designer who designed the building at the corner of Bugis Street?' LOLX

2009-10-20T16:16:00.001+08:00

i realise he is a very focused person... =)

2009-10-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

Spent my afternoon with Fanglin.

Went to expo to walk walk the metro sale, nothing much to buy go yup... walked, talked and proceeded to airport... the saddest thing happened... the viewing hall is like renovating... so we went all the way to airport to sit at the macdonalds... Faint... HAHA..

Shortly after, Adele came and joined us... chat somemore until like 5.20 before we left airport as Fanglin and I going to Cityhall to meet our friend and Adele to proceed home to sleep... HAHA... xD

Met Wife at the MRT station... she got me a flower!! omg... Marlene loves flowers... =) Especially Sunflowers... omg... HAHA...

so we ate at Sushi Tei, den headed to Starbucks to have a drink.. XD went home at 9.30pm...

I didn't realise i missed her so... hahax...

came home, showered and played facebook... HAHA... just got a call from Darling... OMG... Love him to bits man... HAHA... I hope he will go to sch to study tomorrow... i really miss him alot... although its only been 2 days since we last met.. HAHA.. oh wells... juz a short 2 mins call from him is enough to turn me to mush... Lols...

HAPPY 1ST MONTH DARLING

2009-10-18T01:31:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 1ST MONTH DARLING

yeah I'm happy.. =)

havent been in such a mode for quite a long time seriously.. =)

jiayou darling for your exams.. =)

Eventful day(s)~

2009-10-12T01:06:00.002+08:00

10 October 2009 (Saturday)

Woke up at like 9 plus, showered, packed my bag and left for Darling's house. We had a rendezvous to study! woohoo... well prepared to like study my heart out... lol... reached around 11.15am, went to have brunch with him den proceeded up to study... for some reason or other, not much mood, finished my chapter on ESAP, den like nua the whole day... LOL... watched him play WoW, went to sleep, woke up, had dinner with him and XC, den waited for FL to reach, den played mahjong, den Adele came, den played, and we all lost money to him T.T my second time losing to him... sad case... den we went to watch 'Time Travellers' Wife'.. woohoo nice... touching and like omg... so sad...

so yup... met Dar's parents for the first time yesterdae... Was kinda scared inside... But i guess it went fine... =) and so... my name became '马零薯' lol... well... if its easier for them to remember me by that name, I totally have no complains about it.. =)

Reached home at like 4am this morning.. haha... woohoo..

11 October 2009

woke up at 10.30am this morning to see a message from Adel's mother asking if can push the tuition backwards, so yup... settled to have it at 8pm - 10pm... went to study with him, Andy and FL at KAP(a.k.a KOBP - King of Bird Park) and yup... did another chapter but of Econs today... =)

went to have dinner at bukit timah food centre with him and Andy before they walked me back to KAP bus stop to take towards Clementi Central... took 154, and when i got onto the bus, there was this old lady who turned to the back and asked another middle aged lady in Cantonese about some road directions... Then the middle aged lady keep asking the old lady to like alight from the bus and go opposite to take from the other side cause she is already on the wrong direction... den ya... nearing clementi central, she finally alighted but she looked very lost, so i alighted with her and brought her to the opposite side bus stop... she wanted a bus that will go directly to toa payoh interchange, but the only two buses that go pass toa payoh but not stop there is like 105 and 154... so told her to take 154 coz it will like pass through more stops inside toa payoh that she might be able to recognise since taking the MRT is like out as she mentioned that she didnt know how to take the train... so yup.. advised her to ask the bus driver to inform her of where to stop before i left her at the bus stop to go to Adel's place... was already late!! omg.. and its so far away... Faint...

so... came home after tuition... xD

wow... long post... tired...

2009-10-09T22:14:00.002+08:00

Addicted to blogging I tell you... LOL... once this mood comes up, it'll last for a while before the feeling to blog dies off again... HAHA..

Woke up at 10.30am with aches on my forearms and butt.. lol... the bad side of badminton... xD but still enjoyed it tremendously yesterday and looking forward to another session... =)

looked at my hp, awww, its only 10.30 and darlig hasnt called me yet so = go sleep a while more... HAHA.. woke again at 11.30, called Darling and realised he also just woke up... haha... received XC's sms saying he never sleep last night! omg.. and he still can make it to school for lesson today... If it were me.... errr... well, nevermind... HAHA

Dad sent me to school to meet Darling.. Haha... Went to makan place to eat lunch when we decided that we shall postpone our study date to another day.. weather hot and rigourous exercise the day before makes us all tired and lazy... hehs...

so took 154 home... stupid bus broke down... =( waited for the next bus and came home... did my laundry, changed my sheets and played lots of WoW..

Told my mum about Darling... Haha.. Abit fast but... oh wells... I guess it felt right at that time.. =) and i'm glad I did what I did.. Hoho... back to WoW now... =)

2009-10-09T03:19:00.002+08:00

Back from school... xD Had econs in the morning today, followed by a little studying with Adele and 'Jack' and Fanglin + Raine and Jeff at the NP lounge... spent more time chatting though... LOLx... then went to Clementi to play badminton... OMG... Nostalgia sia... I remember going there every Friday in the past when we were in secondary school to play badminton... HAHA... that was when I still wasnt close to Jenny, though we both went to play badminton... HAHA...

After badminton, had dinner at sumo, then rushed back to school for singing... OMG la... bad day for singing... my hands were shaking like crazy from the badminton game, my breath support sucked... ZZZ...

after class, went to have supper with Darling, XC, FL, Wendy, PW, Jokko, Bon, Adele at Al-ameen... ate, den went home... haha... Darling's phone still unable to make phone calls and sms out... =( awww... i miss getting his smses... but gives me a reason to call him... HEHE...

so anyways, after eating, we left early and Darling sent me home before sending XC and Fanglin back...

Darling is such a great guy!! and i'm not being entirely biased here mind you.. =) Lovess.. HAHA...

Gonna go play my mage in WoW le... Hohohoh... Just wanted to share my joy in being in such a great relationship.. xD

Take Care Nick!

2009-10-07T23:51:00.003+08:00

Just came back home from City Link, had dinner with Nickolas, Joel, ShuXian, Hui Xin, Soon Ning, Christopher, Liying, Derek at newyork newyork. Its farewell for Nickolas! He's going India for training... Awww.. Take care friend!

Woke up at 11, showered, had lunch then sweet Daddy sent me to school again. =)Den got sms from Darling... He woke up before 1 leh!! Amazing..

oops... pause blogging for a while... Darling was talking and i onli heard part of it.. LOL.. oops.. got caught... be back later!!

OK back!!

As i was saying... was smsing darling until he suddenly never reply.. =( (i later found out as in like reallie much much later, that his line got cut!!) so yeah... had my ESAP class, smsing jokko and fanglin to keep awake... =) saw Yong Fa an Darryl and Liane and Jessie during break time... and never did i expect that YongFa and Liane is in the same ESAP class as me!!! Haha... so after class, Jokko kindly sent me to my tutee's house... haha... woohoo...

and because Adel had to go out, i did her answer sheet for the mathematics paper that i printed for her and yeah,ended the tuition early, telling her that must make up the lost time on Sunday. so after that, cause i had super alot of time, i went to sit the mrt all the way to pasir ris, den sat back to City Hall, then it suddenly dawned on me that i can go find darling and the others before i went to meet huixin and gang.. =)

so i smsed fanglin again... HAHA... my newfound buddy sia she is.. =) 2,4,6... HAHA... yeah... lucky she has unlimited sms like me... XD den i wnt down to fnd them!! woohoo... super tired... and i think Raine took a few unglam shots of me catching some eye shut... faint... the new candid photo taker!!

after they finished singing, darling did the sweetest thing! he sent me to cityhall to meet the gang then went all the way back to katong to find Adele and Fanglin!! =) Lovess... <3

so yup... back to the dinner... all of them couple couple, so left out... haha... so i smsed fanglin again! hahaha... she is like so nice can...

so anway... after everything, mad my way home... upon reaching home, received an sms from Adele saying Darling's line got cut and Fanglin's phone died so won't be able to reply me... so i started smsing Adele instead!! HAHAHA... faint... i am just too free...

So yeah... I dont really know what I am typing anymore cause he is chasing me to bed! haha... Night!!! =)

We got a little retarded at 4.30am!

2009-10-07T04:29:00.005+08:00

Darling, Xuan Cheng and I still awake at 4.30am!! omg..

Maintainance was over so we went to play World of Warcraft.. XC ran us for some quests.. Haha.. AMAZING! I have to kill like mad to kill one, XC just 'PEW!' den one bunch die... -.-" unfair!! but oh wells, lucky i leveled.. HOHO..

Kinda emo at around 9 plus... Haha... Chat with FL online, den crapped with XC too... But the feeling just didn't go away... Argh... Hate these times... But oh wells... FL kept her 2,4,6 promise and we tried to entertain each other... She's emo too! =( 看开点k? Lovess...

Dunno what I'd do without these wonderful people in my life... With Jenny in Korea, it's like my life is missing something, and though i miss Jenny sorely, FL & gang never fail to cheer me up... Best bunch of juniors ever!

Of course, not forgetting my Darling boy... who has the weird habit of getting up in the most ridiculous time to pee and have trouble going back to sleep... HAHA... Had already fallen asleep when i heard the MSN beep, and being the light sleeper that I am, and the forgetful girl who always forgets to turn off the com, I got awakened... LOL..

And when I saw that it was him, my spirits lifted straight away, the troubles all vanished to the back of my mind... HAHA...

And i guess today is not a very good day in the sense that my twin is not in a very good mood too... Dear Twin, no matter what, it's already been so long, things will work out well for you... hehs.. cya tml twin.. smile.. =)

You Should Never Date a Virgo

Demanding, picky, and a total perfectionist - there's no way you want to live up to Virgo's standards.

It's not that you couldn't please a Virgo... you would just hate yourself for doing it.

Instead try dating: Libra, Leo, Aquarius, or Aries

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

Haha... I'm dating an Aquarius!! =) Great choice eh??

oh wells... Its late... I shall go sleep now... Tatax... Sweet Dreams~

Random~

2009-10-06T19:14:00.002+08:00

With a new blog comes a new motivation to blog... HAHA... Yayness...

Was supposed to wake up earlier to do my chores, but I happily snoozed my phone and went back to sleep! Guess I took a leaf outta Darling's book... Hahaha... Woke up, read for a while, washed up and Daddy sent me to school... Woohoo... Saved from the trouble of taking the ever slow 154... Hehs...

Had the stupid sociology lecture amidst the constantly vibrating floor, and suffered from a bad headache... But for some reason or other, last night's chat with him left my spirits high throughout the day... =)

After class, went to Jurong Point to send my UOL thingy, walked, bought some daily necessities, bought liang teh, came home... =D

Darling, you're the best thing that's happened to me in a long long time... =) Though I don't think you'll see this post cause I doubt you go to people's blogs, but... Yeah... I am not brave enough to tell it to you yet (be it through sms or whatsoever..) so if you happen to stumble upon this blog, then, great! Otherwise, you'll just have to wait till i find the strength to spill my guts... HAHA..

Ok... Did the nails on my left hand, shall now do my right hand... HAHA...

A New Bright Beginning

2009-10-06T04:36:00.003+08:00

After turning 21, I guess its about time to leave my old days behind. Though they will always be a part of my memories, be it good or bad, I think it's be best if some things were left in the past.

Am now into my 2nd week of my 2nd year into my Degree program, and am seriously motivated to do well, seeing darling's results being so good serves as another motivation. (Don't want him to have a lousy girlfriend right.. ) Since the honours is like given, wasted if I didn't get it right? So must work hard for it.

Got lotsa things on my mind now that I want to blog about, but have decided to blog tomorrow some other day instead becauseI promised to sleep soon... So shall go to bed now..

Nights all!! Eventhough I know no one has this blog address yet... Hehs...